April 2010
5 posts
we have a choice
we can choose to suffer
or we can choose to rise above.
there is no happy medium.
one or the other
no pressure.
none whatsoever.
“Just about the time the shadows call
I undress my mind and dare you to follow...”
– sara bareilles “One Sweet Love”
I need
to get up
out of this
grave
i’ve dug for myself.
i need
to wake up
and
claw my way out
of this personal
hell.
March 2010
21 posts
I wish everything made sense in my head. Someday.
“if i was not so weak, if i was not so strong, i’d take you down and show...”
– ~Darcie Miner
i don't know
how much more i can stand.
i walk these streets
and i pretend
to know where i’m going
but i’m lost in the lights
all the buildings look the same
these filthy alleyways
screaming out my name.
i just want to rest
a night of nothing
the dark to take me away
i think it’d be best
to lay my head down
in the ragged cardboard box
that has become my life.
we are all
sick, sad, and lonely. in our own ways.
i'm an experiment in awesome...
and i’ve heard i’m quite successful.
second day of disability...
and I’m so freakin bored.
sometimes I
really want to hide.
if you've got the time
then i’ve got the reason for the sin.
i’m facing this mirror
head on
and accepting it’s image
shattered and razor blade sharp
millions of reminders
of the broken shadow i am.
maybe you’ll glue these pieces
one by one
back together.
so
having an iPod touch is going well.
love is
a fucked up situation.
This night chokes me
taking away my sweetest thoughts
i struggle
fighting
through a maze of confusion
racing
my way to you.
“You don’t do it on purpose but you make me shake
now I count the hours...”
– Something Corporate “Hurricane” (the second of my two favorite parts to this song)
“Shake down, you make me break, for goodness sake,
I think I’m on the edge...”
– Something Corporate “Hurricane” (one of two of my favorite parts)
there's warmth
in that smile
and
it helps me remember
that i do deserve
someone
in my life
to care about me.
the last few days
have seriously shaken me.
i don’t think i can take another bit of bad news.
i wish this was easier.
i wish i was with my best friend to help ease her pain.
i wish i could fix my sister.
i wish i could make my second best friend’s brothers realize how much pain they are causing. to themselves and everyone around them.
i’m so over it.
well... this is a nice turn of events.
WHY
won’t the iStore load in my iTunes??? someone… anyone???
we have to stop letting the hurt take over.
February 2010
106 posts
actually
seekingtheaftrglow:
tragicrhianna: this is where i want to be. ugh! i live in lakeland, florida, NOT anywhere in Pa… i’m completely over this cold!
seekingtheaftrglow: do you live in lakeland?! i live there too but i try not to tell too many people. ^^
tragicrhianna: I live in Mulberry! LOL… thats why I said Lakeland! I’m actually a librarian for the library in Mulberry (yes there is...
actually
seekingtheaftrglow:
tragicrhianna:
this is where i want to be. ugh! i live in lakeland, florida, NOT anywhere in Pa… i’m completely over this cold!
do you live in lakeland?! i live there too but i try not to tell too many people. ^^
I live in Mulberry! LOL… thats why I said Lakeland! I’m actually a librarian for the library in Mulberry (yes there is one…haha).
“Your heart is worth more than you know
The one thing that hurts more than your...”
– The Classic Crime
i'm dreaming
while i’m awake.
the worlds spins so far away
and i’m lost
in your eyes
so cliche
so true
the sun paints my skin with warmth
and we lie
together
on the sand
fingers tips grazing
tender skin.
we wait for the night
to slip into its slumber
wrapping us
in a blanket of comfort.
i know
you won’t let me down.
i am
going to fall asleep over here…
i need more followers.
work is sooooo slowwwww right now...
i love
how you complicate me.
passthemike asked: oh man, I'm not going to Sea World. I was just thinking that their prices probably dropped drastically this week.
I bet
passthemike:
we could get some really cheap tickets to Sea World this weekend!
OMG OMG OMG OMG Mike! Which Sea World you talkin bout??
“don’t stop thinking about tomorrow, don’t stop, because it’ll...”
– Fleetwood Mac *Don’t Stop*
you get me
don’t worry, i get you too.
i will wait for you